Another step toward mediocrity

Another wasted month spent in the retail industry by another wasted lower-end lifeform. Although I know a job does not define nor establish a person, I am not one to get in the way of so-called fate. Maybe I am pretty powerless, but I do believe that I have enough power to change what lies beyond for myself. I'm simply not motivated and I am not stressed out by my current circumstances. Even if I am viewed as a loser by others and even my inner self, I do not feel any pressure.

I can't quite find the words for it, but I guess the best way to describe it is accepting fate. I don't like to think the future is predetermined or that anyone is destined for anything, but we can only see so far into our current path. At this moment, I am unable to think about any beneficial choices I can make to 'improve' my life as society would see fit.

School? Don't think so. I believe learning is important, yes, but I don't feel motivated to focus on studying a single subject (heh, I'm not too keen on motivation anyway). And although it might be satisfying to gather all that knowledge, there's no guarantee that I will be able to apply it to something society deems useful. And why do I have to decide on one thing? I don't even know what I want to be, I know I just want to 'be', even if without meaning.

I'd just like to sit back and observe the world. Travelling and seeing new sights would be nice, but I find simply being to see from this soul's unique point of view is enough for me. Journalism might sit well with me, as I do like writing a fair amount. My technical writing skills just need some polish, but I'm quite worried about having an insightful opinion. Actually, forget about being insightful, I just need an opinion, heh.

I've always found myself enjoying other people's opinions and rants, though. Misinformed, inflamed, wise, sincere, professional, casual, et cetera. Even when I know little to nothing of the subject at hand, I almost always find the statements of their opinions interesting, as well as the possible discussion that follows. Damn, there's gotta be some money in that! Heh...

Anyway, enough of this. As usual, not too much has been happening in my life. I started to try lockpicking with a simple 5-pin doorknob lock I bought. I was successful in picking it after a few hours. It's quite a challenging hobby, that's for sure. I think there's enough material online for me to advance my knowledge, but I just need motivation of course! And maybe a few practice locks.

Street Fighter 4! Looks like I've decided on my main and secondary, Vega/claw and Cammy. It's quite a step up in the execution department, with combo links that require strict timing and such. The mindgames are there as with Soulcalibur 4, they simply look different though. But I'm quite worried about execution 'cause what good is a strategy or a bread and butter combo if ya can't put it into action? I really want something to replace Microsoft's 360 'pad'. I pre-ordered a pad from EB games but it still hasn't arrived yet. Though, I had a strange encounter with a Youtube commenter. Also a programmer extraordinare, this person offered to sell me a custom stick. I hope I can get that, all the 360 Hori RAPs I see are $250+ CAD!

EVO announced that SC4 is going to be in their list of games, and naturally, everyone's all hyped up about that! The Toronto players are no exception, and even a certain low-tier player would definitely enjoy heading down with the crowd. And it's in Vegas as well, which should be an interesting locale to visit. I just don't know if I should actually be travelling when I clearly don't have the skill to compete at a high level...