Hah. Still an unemployed douchebag, and probably with less ambitions and ideals than I've ever had before. Taking that game design course IADT was a waste, and it drained more than 30K and time. It's too late to do anything about that now though, but it's not something that's easily forgotten. Even my former classmates have felt the sting; one is currently a bartender, although he is happily (at least I'd like to think so, heh) married.
With every passing day, I feel like I'm following the footsteps of my brother. He didn't get any work for a while in the beginning, but managed to find something and stick with it. I just need something steady and something I would enjoy, or anything part time so I only have to bear with working for a small amount of time. I don't think there's a job out there that I would enjoy, would be qualified to do, and where I could actually get past the interview process.
But whether it's full time or part, I would still have some time to myself. It's this portion of the day that I'm worried about. Even though I enjoy it a lot, being my favorite hobby and all, I can't spend all of my time on video games. Even with all my free time due to my lack of convincing people that they should hire me into their company that does whatever it does, I don't spend the entirety of the day on gaming.
I don't know why I feel this way. It's probably 'cause I know I'm wasting my life instead of working, so this need for creating something kicks in. That's probably why I wanted to do something like a full 100 point hard mode run in Megaman Zero in the first place. And yes, I know that's still gaming, but when I record for show it feels different, but whatever. That's beside the point.
More recently, I feel like coding a small Megaman-like game where you just fight bosses, maybe like Warning Forever but it'd probably just be against different bosses instead of a single evolving enemy. I'd code it using SDL I suppose. Maybe I'll get started on it soon, but I know that I'd never finish it since I lose interest in things fairly quickly...
If I don't get this telemarking job that my friend referred me to, I'll probably go with my parents on their vacation period to South Dakota. Maybe while on a roadtrip will I find a little clarity in this wasted existence I call my life. Heh, I doubt it though. Once I come back, I'm sure my life will resume its everlasting suckiness.
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Hey.
Same Anonymous guy as three months ago here.
Didn't even realize you ran the final stage, perfect S-Rank, until a few days ago.
Far better than I could do.
I haven't even gone back to the first Zero game in years, let alone Hard Mode.
My request is along the same lines as last time, in that it'd be neat if you could upload the single video file to megaupload, since it's the closest thing to a superplay I'll see of anyone running Zero 1 on Hard Mode.
(Yeah, don't think of it as a "slow" non-speedrun, since a no-damage video always looks mighty impressive as it is, regardless of breakneck velocity.)
As for life outside of video games, I'd like to offer words of encouragement if I could, except that I'm looking at a no-future myself.
But I suppose that's why I'm asking for this as a distraction, isn't it?
Well, I hope that you can be as accomodating as last time, in spite of the internet speeds, if they haven't improved much, as well as your current situation regarding your outlook on life, but I can be completely understanding if you happen to react negatively or even outright ignore this rather long comment left by a guy with no name.
Peace, and may your days get better.
Thanks for the kind words again. I'll be happy to upload a video somewhere...once I complete my 100 point hard mode single segment run. Yeah, I've made up my mind and finally decided to put myself through hell, heh. Unfortunately, that's gonna take a while to do, in addition to the 2 weeks I'm spending out of town soon. I hope you can hold off for a while.
There aren't any superplays for MMZ hard mode? I know I've seen 100 point runs on hard, but I guess those were all segmented.
As for meatspace, I'm sure I'll figure something out. Heh, everyone keeps telling me I'm still young and I just shrugged it off as BS, but as long as I haven't hit rock bottom, there's always a way out.
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