Swift Strike

I'm still amazed by how the passage of time progresses so rapidly. Is it nearly April already? The sun is clearly shining in the daytime, but cold winds are still blowing though the open city streets. I hope I can enjoy the months of the new season.

As usual, another wasted minute becomes another wasted hour, day, week, et cetera. Even if I grew slowly but surely, it wouldn't be so bad, but right now it looks like all aspects of my life are severely imbalanced. At my workplace, I'm not doing too hot. I thought I would be satisfied when I heard I would be working in the merchandising department. It was all morning shifts so I could enjoy the day and it doesn't involve selling any products or services at all. Basically it was the department who did all the grunt work, moving product out onto the shelves, hauling overstocked items up top, and the like.

Getting up for 6 AM shifts didn't bother me, but after about a month of doing this stuff, I find myself growing increasingly unhappy. Heh, maybe it's 'cause selling stuff also had the upside of doing nothing when the floor's devoid of people. And it's nice to converse with co-workers and customers alike for a little while. Yup, balance is key...

My gaming skills aren't getting better. According to the play time counter, I took more than 25 hours to complete Resident Evil 5. I heard a couple of people saying they beat it in a weekend, so I guess I'm doing something wrong. Of course it didn't help that this was my first RE game and I started on Veteran difficulty. And halfway through my ongoing playthrough, I found RE5 to be a little boring and nearly lost the desire to go on. But I managed to overcome that strange feeling and found the game enjoyable overall.

I think I had one of those days...sometimes I just get a bout of depression and lose the will to do anything, especially gaming. I wonder where it stems from. I've always had some strange thoughts, like a different personality was to emerge from me. I look at my parents and see many similarities with my mother and father, and I look at myself to see what is truly inside me. But I can't find a definite answer. So I just continue being pathetic because it's all I know.

And sometimes, I'll get a burst of motivation which I hope could last longer or at least be more intensified then it is right now. There's another Soulcalibur 4 and Street Fighter 4 dual tourney coming up. My performance was pretty piss poor, and something inside of me wants vengeance. Not against my opponents though, but against myself. I'll try to make this one different, even if the result is the same.

Finally, I gotta get back to my Megaman Zero 2 run. It doesn't seem too bad with the double damage, it simply means I need to practice more in order to do a near-perfect no hit run, heh. Just gotta get into that groove...